I'm mesmerized -- in CEBU

I'm waiting for someone so I decided to log on to the cyberspace. Surprisingly, I find myself in Cebu City instead of Dumaguete where I originally intended. The reason can be found in the post just before this one. I still have nothing to blog about because nothing has happened yet, maybe in the next coming days I will be able to write something.
Anyway, I was finally able to read The Little Prince while I was passing time earlier and that is why I decided to blog all of a sudden. The truth is I find the book very heart warming and its simplicity is just fantastic, nothing beats how it teaches something from a story so simple. I do not intend to write a review about it for I know that the book has become timeless already and no amount of review can give justice to the wonder of the book. There is more insight on me now that before I read the book and I reckon I might find these new insights useful in the next few minutes that I will be embarking on another leap of faith... Yes it is a leap of faith that I now find myself here in Cebu. I was contemplating earlier on the things that have happened and inasmuch as it seems so unreal, it also seems so exciting. I do not really know what will happen out of this "leap" I made but what I do know that there is no wrong intention in what I am doing, I was simply enthralled. I find it funny that I now use the words mesmerized and enthralled, I kind of remembered the time when I was laughing at Yas when her now boyfriend was using those words to woo her. I felt it was corny then and now I realized that I am becoming corny also. But I guess maybe this will just be one of the things that I will end up being happy doing irregardless of the outcome. I suddenly dread the day that I will leave Visayas and go back to Manila tomorrow and finally to Baguio maybe on the 15th. Of course, I do not feel that sad at all because in just a month will be Christmas Break. Now I am contemplating on the possibility that if the next few hours will be a blast, I just might find myself going back to Cebu for my Christmas Break (Sana). But then its too early to say, nothing is certain yet what I do know is that I am getting excited by the minute. The time now is somewhere near 5:30 and I'm hoping that time will just fly and stop when I finally see her. Today, I just have to gather all the self confidence I have even when I am not in uniform, as one Officer would put it, its the "so-what" attitude that spells the difference and now I know this is my only chance and its all systems go.... Well, I'm day dreaming again so I just have to end this entry now

The party is over

I haven't blogged for a while and that is why I deemed it necessary to write something after all the activities I had while on break. I am presently at San Carlos City, Negros Occidental who just had their City Fiesta. That explains why there seems to be no time to post something over the past few days when there was just so much to do, there was party all over and I just can't help but savor every bit of it. I enjoyed taking pictures of the festival having been entrusted by my uncle with his "miraculous" digital camera (its miraculous because it takes very good pictures) I only realized now that of all the more than 200 pictures I have taken over the past few days, none of it included me, I was not able to take pictures of myself. But then I can always claim that all the pictures were taken by me and I'm contented with that fact that it was good. I'm bringing along cds of the pictures I have taken hoping that I can make a something out of it and present it to the cyber world, to give you a glimpse of just how beautiful the festivities were, that I intend to do when I go back to Manila.

Speaking of beautiful, I was mesmerized by the beauty of one of the ladies I met in one of the parties that transpired. Incidentally, that beautiful face just bagged the Ms. San Carlos Crown the day before and by some twist of fate ended up talking to me finally exchanging numbers. Now I'm wondering if I should still pass through Cebu (which is not part of the original plan but is the place where she is now) or just go directly to Dumaguete and just hope to God she'll remember a part of me during the times that I will bother texting her of all the nonsense I could think of. I'm contemplating on the fact that I might not have created a lasting impression when we met since we were basically in the middle of a huge party and that she just can't help it but be friendly considering that she just became a beauty queen the day before. I am really seriously considering going to Cebu with enough money still on my pocket, it was a good thing I did not spend that much.... Hahahaha

And so that is what has happened so far, the party is over but my break still has two more weeks and I intend to spend the rest of it in Manila, it was a good thing that I was able to buy my ticket earlier, airfare now has dramatically increased and that would certainly be a problem. Well, all this EVAT thing and my ignorance on the Pinoy Big Brother Craze is certainly something that amuses people, but at least I know how the REAL world functions.

So this is where I end for now watch out for the pictures I'll be posting maybe as a website..... Just watch out.... It will include Body Painting Pictures (the ladies are really topless, wearing only t-back panties, of course you can not recognize the breasts since its covered with paint, but still the breasts are bare) and of course the Pintaflores Street Dancing and other festivities so that's it for now ciao....

Debating

I spent the last two days as a participant of this years Inter Company Debate Tournament. I had three debate and sadly, I just almost made it to the semi finals... I mean almost because it was at the tip of my fingers. But then again, the consolation is that after the debate that almost gave me and my partner a semi-final berth, one of the adjudicators (the judges) talked to me and told me that she felt sorry for me because I was good only that I had the misfortune of summarizing a debate that did not present good arguments (I was the Whip by the way - the whip summarizes the debate). I really do feel bad about what happened since I wanted to proceed to the semi finals, I was hoping that at least I could give my company something that they can be proud of, but to no avail I failed. So I retreat to my blog hoping to put out all the emotions that I simply do not want to hold on to. Tommorrow, I go back to the usual routing of classes and all this feelings will just be forgotten... I hope...

Somehow I felt an urge to write a continuation to my short story that was published in the Academic Issue of the Corps Magazine. It's funny how ideas can just come up and somehow lead to something I want. I'll keep on sending this magazines to that girl and just maybe something good will happen out of these stories that I make... hehehe

And so I'll end here for now, tomorrow I will be sending the Corps Magazines that I have to the people that I think deserve to receive it. A few more weeks and I'm going on vacation.....Ciao!!!

Past relationships

I was reading a blog of someone I used to be with earlier and I can't help it but to write something about what I read. I do not know how to call the relationship that we had. For one, I felt that it wasn't something that ended well and that even now, there is a certain part of me that kind of regrets being with her. But then reading her blog kind of reminds me of exactly why I feel for her in the first place. I mean, the feeling that you are just so convinced that this person is so fun to be with, that you would want to share youre dreams with her, that you basically want to live life having her with you. Of course, the relationship was concluded in a not so good manner. Things happened and before we knew it we were doing things as if we never really loved each other at all. Now looking back, I coulr just reminisce the things that I liked about the person, at the same time dread how it ended. Every now and then, I think about her, I kind of miss her. I try to picture in my mind the lost treasure that we once cultivated. Every now and then she sends me a text message and its seldom that I reply, but although I do not really want to go back to her at this exact moment, I kind of feel like I lost someone great. There are just some things that we have to do. At the back of my mind I could simply smile about the things that have happened, the wonderful memories. But it's over now, I look forward to what lies ahead of me. Sometimes I find myself lost reading her blog, picturing a wonderful lady that I was once with, remembering the happy moments that we shared, perhaps reliving the smiles that we had a couple. Maybe when I find another girl, I'll try to find something that feels the way I once felt for her. I simply do not know what happens next, I just hope that she becomes happy with her life now and that maybe someday in the future we realize that we have both become better people because of the wonderful experience we had loving each other.

Last bastion of decency

I felt so emotional today during one of my classes. It was my leadership class. In this class, we are taught about -- leadership, of course. The subject is some sort of our major subject. Anyway, my instructor, a young army captain who had been in the field was casually telling us his own experiences in the field and relate it to our lessons. We were discussing a topic about Inspirational Leadership when he segued over the topic on the current crisis facing the Philippine Military Academy. As I said in my previous entry, there were all sorts of reaction from all cadets when the story about an honor violation of a first class cadet appeared in the Philippine Daily Inquirer yesterday. That night, our Company Commander briefed us about that news report and he said that the Superintendent, from whose statement the story was taken from did not talk about that case. The truth is the media bloated that whole story from an example given by the Superintendent to make a point regarding the new Honor Code that will soon be implemented here in PMA. What appeared on the papers was a story of an honor violation and that the new Honor System was just a detail. There goes another media blitz all for the sake of readership and in the end the reputation of PMA is damaged. But then again, its not actually a damaging story. I mean, that just goes to show that Character Development in PMA is of great significance. Now going back to my lesson in my Leadership class. My instructor simply said something that gave me more idealism. He said that the reason why all these people are so much interested in destroying PMA is that it is the last bastion of decency in the Armed Forces or better yet of the Philippine Society in general. The rest of our society have not realized that they have succumbed to the ills of our society. They just gave up and allowed this disease to swallow them and consequently perpetuate it. With all the so many issues facing our country today, people wondering who is telling the truth, there is one place where young men and women are trained to live in the highest order of honor and that is why they choose to attack it knowing that inside it's halls the idealism of Integrity, Honor and Ethics flourish. No amount of attack can really destroy the morale of our young minds. Yes, perhaps we really are the last bastion of decency.

"My honor is my life, take my honor and my life is gone"
-William Shakespeare-