Just another blog entry

Just this morning I was one of the first in our company to read the news about the cadet who was caught stealing cellphone load from other cadet's cellphone published in today's Philippine Daily Inquirer. Well, it seems that PMA is always in the news these past days and the sad things is that almost all of this news are not that good. Of course, many were not happy about that news item considering that for most of us we consider honor cases secret, we seldom talk about these things among us and we want honor violations dealt with in the most discreet way possible. This is done to save the guilty person the humiliation once he gets out. You see when one is found guilty of an honor violation he is asked to resign from the academy, and this act deems him an honorable person for taking responsibility for his actions. But then again, with this recent media glitz, it will just be a matter of time when the media finds out who the person is and aside from the fact that the person fails to graduate, he has to face the humiliation brought about by various opinions from people who surely do not know much about PMA or the administration of the honor code to its cadets. I, too, do not know who that person is and I really do not want to find out, I'm just happy that the honor code works.

The other sunday, I had the rare opportunity to listen to a very good message in church. The speaker was an invited pastor from the church I was attending way back when I was still a part of the civilian world. I admire the preachers of that church for they really inspire people to follow God. That is what happened to me. You see, I really haven't been a good Christian for a long time now. Suddenly, I just forgot. I realized that I haven't really assessed my faith and the way I am living it especially now that I got what I want and that I am so pre occupied with the things pertaining to cadetship. I remembered several years ago when I simply do not know what to do with my life and all I wanted was to go back to PMA. I used to cry when praying and focused all my efforts into being a good Christian. I was part of the church ministry and I could say I was doing well. When I was a fourthclass, I used to wake upe every 5 in the morning to have my quiet time despite of the hectic schedule as a cadet. Then suddenly, I forgot, I simply haven't realized that I have lost to complacency and getting what I want. The message that I heard led me to recommit myself to the things that I was so committed about. Right now, I could just imagine how much work I should do to go back to the stage where everything depends on the Lord. I hope that the people who are reading this blog will pray for me regarding this things. I realized that despite of the so many issues confronting me, the most important issue is the issue on one's relationship with God. I just had to be reminded.

Well, with barely a month of academics, I think it will just be a breeze. That's it for now....

PMA under siege

Last Sunday, I had a privilege to hear BGen Gudani speak in church. He spoke about ingredients of success in life and he spoke of several other things, one of which was his scheduled attendance on the inquiry regarding the Hello Garci controversy. And then Wednesday came, the Superintendent spoke to us during lunch and from there we learned about the sudden issues that surround our dear Assistant Superintendent and Assistant Commandant, both of which has been relieved of their duties as personnel of the Philippine Military Academy. Then finally, this morning the Commandant spoke to us in the mess hall regarding the false reports that there was a mass walk out on the cadets because of these recent controversies. The media was allowed to film us to give proof that indeed all the reports that came out are just mere imaginations of the fickle minds of some people. Well, what do I have to say about all this things? I know that our regulation specifically sanctions those who make opinions publicly that do not have explicit permission from the Superintendent but then again this is not something that I think will violate that regulation, to present an opinion is the same thing as what I do when I write for the Corps Magazine.

First and foremost, I have to say that I look up to the Generals that are now in control of the PMA. I admire the Commandant because I really feel how so concern he is with how we will be as future officers of the Armed Forces. I must also say that I also admire General Gudani. I see him every sunday in church and being the outspoken person that I am, I oftentimes chat with him regarding things, in fact he calls me by first name. The truth of the matter is I believe that what General Gudani said was true. We are supposed to give him a testimonial parade and review tommorrow for his retirement and it was cancelled because of this recent events. Having known this man personally, I regard him as a role model an epitome of a true soldier. Well, if you think about it, this person has everything to lose and nothing to gain because of his revelations. I see in him the courage to stand by what is true irregardless of the circumstances. Some people will say that my young mind is too innocent to meddle with this things but then this is something that will say a lot about how I will be when the time comes that I am faced with difficult decisions. Each day as I go on with my training, I am faced with instances where I have to choose between the easier wrong and the harder right. I have to remain steadfast on my convictions irregardless of upperclassmen who do not respect one's personal opinions regarding things. Here, I have to decide for myself once and for all what kind of person I want to become and then pursue it no matter what the circumstances are. Sometimes I think about things, about hard choices that I will be making, about considerations that may involve my life, the lives of the soldiers that I will lead, their families and my own family, and believe it or not I have come to realize that doing the right thing sure is hard. I pray that when the time comes I will be able to muster enough courage to say the truth regardless of the circumstance. I hope people will come to realize how the truth can rock mountains even those so powerful, even the presidency......

I hope I'm not getting myself into trouble....

It's raining cats and dogs

A while ago I happened to glance the front page of a newspaper and read something about a fallen billboard which interrupted MRT operations for three hours in Manila. I just realized that its not only here in Baguio that has winds this strong but also in Manila. But the way I looked at the picture it seems that it isn't raining, not like here where it is so cold its as if the baguio climate is not enough. In case you people do not know, the BER months signals the start of rising cold in Baguio. Although the peak of the chill happens sometime after the year has ended, the coldness starts to affect me. I do not sweat anymore during the night and I almost do not want to wake up in the morning because the temperature is so much conducive to sleeping. But then it is as if I can sleep all I want so I muster enough strength and do what I have to do.

Last night the cadets from Maritime Academy of the Asia and the Pacific (MAAP) arrived and I just feel like writing in my blog that we have visitors inside barracks. I reckon that they won't enjoy their visit because of the weather but then it is as if it matters to me if they do enjoy their visit to my alma mater. I haven't interacted with them yet except for some hi's and hellos when we meet in the hallway doing our thing.

In more than a month classes will be over and then break will commence. In my class earlier the instructor announced our latest grade and Philosophy is not looking up for me. With 7.7 its so many points shy of exemption. Of course, there's still two unit lessons to go and I really hope that the next lessons willgive me chance to catch up. Well, at least this time I am not confronted with deficiencies that threaten my cadetship. My goal now is really to exempt as much subject as i can so that I will have more free time come finals week and if possible go on early break.

Well, my problems are over (it seems); except for my friendster account which is not much of a problem really, I think all is well in the end. I guess that's how I would pit it right now. Despite of the problems I have encountered, in the past weeks everything just ended well and is looking bright ahead. So that's it for now..... Ciao

It's confirmed

I just tried viewing my hacked friendster account from another account of my classmate and its confirmed some of the entries were altered by the one who accessed it and changed the profile so that I can not access it anymore. The words were changed from the original Anak ng Baka to Anak ng Bakla. Well, I guess that's how fun is for that person. Not so long ago I remembered sharing my accoutn with someone since at that time I can not access my account because of the training. I told the person to check my account for me so that it won't be idle for the next couple of months. When I resumed using the account, I did not bother to change any of my profile settings since I basically felt that there was no need for it. But lo and behold after a conflict that happened recently even my friendster account is undersiege. Imagine how crazy some people's minds are to the point beyond comprehension. Of course I do not worry much on what that person might probably do to that account. The truth is I am more worried with my friends list that I will be losing if I create another account. The person can spread to the whole world na bading ako and that I like men for all I care, if you know me I even tell people sometimes that I am gay just for the heck of it, as if it will change anything about my sexuality. The truth is, one just have to know who they really are and basically no amount of false rumor can change the way they think about themselves. Well, that is just life is, I'm hoping somebody will help me get my account back or the person will realize how shallow the action is and just give me back my friendster account, e-mail mo na lang ako huwag kang mag-alala I am not a vengeful person, I'm way beyond that, I just want to live my life to the fullest, I may have done some stupid things that have affected people but I try my best to be good maybe not in the way that some people think I should. I have my way of doing things and if you're just patient enough to wait then you wouldn't be bannering your stupidity and childish tantrums over the internet for people to see and "appreciate". Well, at least I have my blog account secure perhaps the person can try hacking into this one also and say something like I am gay and all that... as if it matters sige for the fun of it I will say it

I AM GAY, BADING AKO

ang saya saya..... :)

Corps Mag

We're done with the latest Corps Magazine, in a few weeks it will be out. I'm proud to say that I had a good time doing this one of course that includes going to manila and getting the chance to go home. I'm posting the cover of the magazine so that you people can get a glimpse of how it's going to look like, please tell me your comments... the image is the whole cover the left is the front cover and the right is the back cover..... yun lang po... thanks