[15:04] friend: kasi im having doubts...
[15:04] friend: i dont know what to do with this guy
[15:04] me: what about him?
[15:06] friend: alm mo yun, rarely do u meet someone p nagjjive yung intellectual level nyo. let's say you are seeing ourself in that person
[15:06] friend: n nagjjive*
[15:07] me: so what about it?
[15:07] friend: pero syempre in one aspect lang kayo compatible
[15:08] friend: ...teka, tuloy ko muna ang kwento
[15:08] me: ito tanong what is it that you are worried about? worried ka kasi you seem to like the idea of being with the person?
[15:08] friend: kind of.... but i want to him a lesson.... and he too wants to teach me a lesson....
[15:08] friend: to teach*
[15:09] me: teka nga first let us examine things
[15:09] me: ano ba ang gusto mong mangyari?
[15:09] me: sige nga magtapatan tayo
[15:10] friend: ....there are times i want to be with the person na di ko alam ang reason, i jsut want to be with the person
[15:11] me: dyan pa lang mali ka na
[15:11] friend: but i dont tell him that
[15:11] friend: of course i dont tell him that
[15:11] me: ganito kasi yun
[15:11] me: ano ba ang dahilan why people go into relationships?
[15:11] friend: pero sya he always tell me that
[15:12] me: sagutin mo muna tanong ko
[15:12] friend: ewan ko.. that's what i told him, i am poor on relationships
[15:13] me: alam mo we young people have this perception that we go into relationships for the purpose of having a companion
[15:13] me: in reality a relationship is a prelude to marriage
[15:13] friend: for me, di ganun kababaw ang reason para magenter sa relationship
[15:13] me: yun talaga yun
[15:14] me: ginawa lang natin kasi masarap ang feeling ng being with someone
[15:15] friend: ganto kasi, i dont do whatever i feel like doing right away
[15:15] friend: sympre pinapakaisip ko muna
[15:15] me: hindi mo naman sinasagot yung tanong ko eh
[15:15] me: whatever your reason is if it is not marriage then it is not a valid reason
[15:15] me: at least that is how I see it
[15:16] friend: though my feeling would tell me to approach this guy, di ko magawa. all this time dnededma ko lang sya. ngayon, di ko alam kung tama ba ang ginagawa ko.
[15:16] me: hay nako bata ka pa nga esmeralda
[15:16] me: entering into a relationship is not about feelings always remember that
[15:17] me: pag ganyan ang mentality natin we only expose ourselves to more trouble
[15:17] friend: kasi nmn, ngangayon ko nga pinapansin etong feeling ko.
[15:17] friend: grrrhhh...
[15:18] me: it is enough to be thankful that we are appreciated by other people
[15:18] me: grabe sa panahon ngayon everybody wants to be with someone
[15:18] friend: at nga2yon ako nag-iisip ng ganto
[15:18] me: parang abnormal ko if you are singel
[15:18] friend: di ah... yoko nga ng commitment
[15:19] me: yun nga so bakit mo iniisip yung nararamdaman mo with another person if you are not even willing to commit
[15:20] me: my dear there is more to life than what the world is making us believe
[15:20] friend: well siguro this guy just fills in one need of mine, but not totally...
[15:21] me: alam mo ma'am do not fast track things
[15:22] me: hintayin natin syang kusang dumating
[15:22] friend: di nmn sya special.. basta when he came across my life, he brought me something i never knew i neeeded.
[15:23] me: yun nga eh alam mo pala yung mga bagay na yan
[15:23] me: and yet you entertain the thoughts
[15:23] me: alam mo before we go into something we must always examine our intentions
[15:24] friend: i mean, ngayon ko lang narealize n i was looking for that something long ago... unaware lang ako n i was looking for it
[15:24] me: the do it at the proper time
[15:24] friend: and when he came, i realized that.........
[15:24] me: is it an immediate need?
[15:25] me: hindi kabawasan ng pagkatao mo if you stay single even for your lifetime
[15:25] friend: kind of... di pa depende sa principle ko
[15:25] friend: noh, it's not that i need a boyfriend
[15:25] friend: i am sure of that, i do not need one.
[15:25] me: so ano ang kailangan mo?
[15:26] me: ano nga?
[15:27] me: tao po
[15:28] friend: well i dont act based on what i need.......
[15:28] friend: ewan ko....
[15:28] friend: !
[15:28] me: alam mo it seems that you are being defensive
[15:29] friend: then i told u about this unaware need kanina, bad ako....
[15:29] me: ha?
[15:29] friend: ewan ko talaga... alam mo kasi, if i have answer, i do answer.
[15:29] me: yun nga eh
[15:29] friend: and if i told u i dont know, i really dont know
[15:30] me: ito yun
[15:30] me: you can not allow someone to be part of your life kung ikaw mismo hindi mo kilala sarili mo
[15:30] friend: well siguro dedma ko sya kasi i am never sure of what i am feeling
[15:30] friend: go on...
[15:31] me: alam mo if you do things for the wrong reason you are only exposing yourself to more danger
[15:31] me: the way I see it now hindi mo nga kilala sarili mo
[15:31] me: ikaw mismo nalilito sa sarili mo
[15:32] me: how do you expect that someone to understand you kung ikaw mismo hindi mo maintindihan sarili mo
[15:32] friend: i see...
[15:33] me: see the logic?
[15:33] friend: infatuation lang to i know
[15:33] me: yun nga kasi you feel so good kaya we say that it is love
[15:33] me: alam mo love is not a feeling or anything
[15:33] friend: and then i try to deny what i feel kasi i have fears
[15:33] me: it is who we are
[15:33] me: ewan ko kung nagragrasp mo yung concept ha
[15:34] me: alam mo yung definition nya sa bible?
[15:34] friend: and i dont wanna talk about love kasi
[15:34] me: yun nga eh
[15:34] me: you have to know what it is for you to understand it and distinguish it from other good feelings that you feel inside
[15:34] friend: and i find it REALLY hard to entrust my feeling to someone
[15:35] me: yun pa diba love is always trusting
[15:35] me: dun palang wala ka na
[15:35] friend: i cant do that now
[15:35] me: yun nga love comes at a time when we are ready to embrace it
[15:35] me: sabi ko nga it is not a feeling
[15:35] me: it is a state of who we are
[15:36] friend: so right love at a wrong time is non-existent?
[15:36] me: ganito yun
[15:36] me: the right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing
[15:36] me: kahit hindi love
[15:38] me: uy
[15:38] me: andyan ka pa?
[15:38] friend: sige bahala n lang sya...
[15:38] me: ay hindi bahala sya
[15:39] friend: i told him to work hard
[15:39] me: hindi pwedeng ganun
[15:39] me: the truth remains that the person feels something for you
[15:39] me: and it is wrong to just dismiss people's feelings
[15:40] me: nasubukan mo na yung masamang masama ang loob mo over something tapos parang people do not care
[15:40] friend: kasi eto yung attitude ko pagdating sa guys, parang "they should come chasing after me." there's no ay i will support them, aba eh di pag-igihin nila...
[15:41] me: yun nga eh kasi you see yourself as a chase
[15:41] me: do you honestly admit na yun lang ang value mo?
[15:41] me: c'mon
[15:41] me: you are more than that
[15:41] friend: yun na pinag-iisipan ko ngayon.....
[15:42] me: see
[15:42] friend: that's why i wanna figure things out
[15:42] me: ikaw mismo binababa mo yung sarili as a mere chase
[15:42] friend: kaya nabobother ako nang ganto
[15:42] me: pag ganyan ang tingin mo sa sarili mo people will treat you that way also
[15:42] me: ikaw din
[15:42] friend: treat me like what?...
[15:43] me: they will treat you as if you are someone to catch
[15:43] me: parang a price to be won
[15:43] me: ganun
[15:44] friend: i am not easy-to-get lang talaga... swear.
[15:45] me: pero kaya kang makuha
[15:45] me: yun ang point
[15:45] me: it takes only one person who can sweep you off your feet and then what's next?
[15:45] friend: wala ngang makakuha eh
[15:45] me: sabi mo lang yun
[15:46] friend: and then what's next?
[15:46] me: hindi mo alam kung ano kayang gawin ng lalake to pursue a girl
[15:46] me: ako pa sinabihan mo nyan
[15:46] me: yun nga ang tanong ko sa'yo eh
[15:47] me: if you see yourself as a chase after the chase what happens
[15:47] friend: and u know what a girl like me truly needs and wants.
[15:47] me: hindi yun ang issue
[15:48] me: hindi ko alam kung ano nga kailangan mo pero kaya kitang bolahin na magiging feeling mo in love ka sa akin
[15:48] me: that is modesty speaking ha
[15:48] me: madaling gawin yun
[15:48] me: but a man whose intention is just for the catch will definitely just use you
[15:49] me: hindi ka talaga nya mamahalin kasi you are just some conquest
[15:49] friend: after the chase, what happens?
[15:49] me: after you are conquered he moves on to another conquest
[15:49] friend: okay i select only few who can chase me....
[15:49] friend: unless matinik tlga sila/sya.
[15:49] me: sus marami ka pa ngang hindi alam sa mundo ms balita
[15:50] me: yun nga eh sabi ko sa'yo kahit ako kaya kitang bolahin na feeling mo inlove ka na sa akin
[15:50] me: pero hindi naman ganun yun eh
[15:51] friend: yun pa, i know very well that men can use girl... bolahin, paibigin.... that is why i dont trust them.......
[15:51] me: yun nga but if you do not know how to guard yourself you will be persuaded
[15:52] friend: alam mo ba na everytime may sabihin sakin ang isang guy, i would/will always doubt his sincerity
[15:52] friend: even a friend...
[15:53] friend: kaya di ako matahimik eh, lagi ako nagddoubt, nagkuquestion............
[15:53] friend: wala akong paniwalaan, i dont take their words seriously
[15:53] friend: nakocornihan ako
[15:53] me: well sincerity is felt by the heart
[15:54] me: madali namang mag i love you to everyone eh
[15:54] me: but really meaning it yun ang iba
[15:54] friend: EASIER SAID THAN DONE....
[15:54] me: you can even really mean it without actually saying it
[15:54] me: the tendency kasi for most people is that they dwell with the feeling
[15:54] me: syempre masarap kaya yung pinupuri ka
[15:54] me: and all that
[15:54] me: but it is more than that
[15:55] me: sabi ko nga hindi yan feeling
[15:55] me: love is who we are
[15:55] friend: that point sir... in fact, i hate it when one praises/complements me
[15:55] me: akala mo lang yun
[15:55] me: nagpapakadefensive ka lang
[15:56] friend: swear... ayoko makarinig ng ganun.
[15:56] friend: bingi ako dun eh... bolero kaagad iniisip ko kapag ganun
[15:56] me: hindi ako naniniwala
[15:56] me: baka naman kasi hindi marunong yung nagsabi
[15:56] me: syempre parang speech yan
[15:57] me: may delivery ding kasama
[15:57] friend: di sana ang tagal ko na nainlove.. sana ang tagal ko na nagka boyfriend
[15:57] me: hindin ka pa nga nakakatagpo ng mga natural na bolero
[15:57] me: buti na lang matino na ako nung nakilala mo ako
[15:57] me: hahaha
[15:57] friend: hate u!
[15:58] me: ayaw mo kasing maniwala eh
[15:58] me: sinasabi ko sa'yo if I really wanted to kaya kong pasagutin kahit sinong babae
[15:58] me: bigyan nya lang ako ng chance to really be with her
[15:58] me: promise!!!
[15:58] me: at hindi yabang yun
[15:59] friend: and what if the girl doesnt give u chance
[15:59] me: by the looks kung hindi kayo makakapag usap paano mo sya mabobola
[15:59] friend: isa p yan, i hate the word promise pa...
[15:59] me: yun lang naman ang minimum requirement
[16:00] me: there has to be an opportunity
[16:00] friend: im the kind of girl who doesnt give chances kasi..
[16:00] me: yun ang akala mo
[16:00] me: pero you like conversations like this
[16:00] friend: for me, u dont ask for chance,,, u work for it.
[16:00] me: sus akala mo lang yun
[16:01] me: isipin mo na lang paano mo naisip na medyo type mo na yung guy na sinasabi mo kanina
[16:01] me: and he wasn't even good
[16:01] me: hahaha
[16:01] friend: sa yo iba, cause u r a friend
[16:01] me: yun nga eh
[16:01] me: If I had other things in mind kaya ko namang mag take advantage eh
[16:01] friend: the feeling.
[16:01] me: kung gugustuhin ng lalake merong paraan
[16:02] me: alam mo you are wired a female
[16:02] me: it takes only an understanding how females are
[16:02] friend: yun, kung gugustuhin ng lalaki merong paraan
[16:02] friend: traditional
[16:02] me: anong traditional?
[16:02] friend: + patience
[16:03] me: hay nako remember a popular dialogur from ally mcbeal
[16:03] friend: no one's weird.
[16:03] me: yung we all have criterias for the perfect guy but at the back of our minds the right one is always the exception?
[16:04] friend: hala, gasgas na yan..
[16:04] friend: isa pa wala akong criteria
[16:04] me: as in wala talaga?
[16:04] me: maniwala ako sa'yo
[16:04] me: ano yung sinasabi mo kaning intellectual level chenes
[16:04] me: di'ba criteria yun
[16:05] friend: hello pag mahal mo ang tao, di mo na iisipin yun. sa simula lang yun
[16:05] me: uy defensive na naman
[16:05] me: pero criteria di'ba?
[16:05] me: sus alam mo in the span of our conversation alam ko na na you are so vulnerable
[16:06] me: kaya ikaw be careful with your heart, beautiful ka pa naman
[16:06] me: ikaw din
[16:07] friend: yan nagpapansin n nmn etong guy na to
[16:07] friend: dedma ko....
[16:07] friend: 'thanks for saying that i am vulnerable
[16:07] friend: i was waiting for someone who'd tell me that.
[16:08] me: yun nga eh masyado na kasi nating na hype up yung sarili natin
[16:08] me: akala natin hindi tayo tinatablan
[16:08] friend: wag mo ngang sabihing ako'y beautiful.. dagdag bola lang yun
[16:08] me: eh totoo naman
[16:08] me: alam mo ba pag nakikita ng mga tao yung pictures natin ang una nilang tinatanong eh ikaw
[16:08] me: promise
[16:09] me: pasalamat ka mahal ko ang mga friends ko
[16:09] friend: so?,...
[16:09] me: hay nako cadets will be cadets
[16:09] me: ako mismo wala akong tiwala sa kapwa ko kadete
[16:10] friend: stereotyping, maawa k s kanila.
[16:10] me: just believe me
[16:10] me: iisang classification na nga kami
[16:10] friend: "just believe me" gasgas n yan
[16:10] me: maniwala ka sa akin kasi ako yung kadete
[16:11] friend: be careful with what u say, especially to me..
[16:11] me: yun ang ibig kong sabihin
[16:11] me: alam mo nakakatawa ka
[16:11] me: you have this tendency to think na you are in control of the situation
[16:11] me: alam mo yun
[16:12] me: if I was scheming against you naloko na kita
[16:12] me: don't be like that
[16:12] friend: bakit nmn.... i know i should be VERY careful nga
[16:13] friend: akala mo nmn ganun ka kagaling mag scheme.../
[16:13] me: remember hindi mo ako kilala
[16:13] me: ikaw din
[16:13] me: hahaha
[16:13] friend: that's why i should be VERY careful
[16:14] me: well bahala ka kung ano iisipin mo tungkol sa akin
[16:14] friend: thanks for warning me
[16:14] me: sabi ko nga intentions are determined by the heart
[16:15] friend: pakisabi sa mga kadete, photogenic lang ako!
[16:16] me: actually hindi ko na lang ine entertain
[16:16] me: hinahayaan ko na lang sila
[16:17] me: nakakatawa no kasi parang ang dami kong alam pero hindi rin naman talaga
[16:17] me: hahaha
[16:18] me: natahimik ka?
[16:20] friend: i think it's not about how much u know, but rather about WHAT u know
[16:21] me: alam mo kung sana ang problema ko sa pag-ibig ay kasing babaw lang ng sayo
[16:21] me: ang saya sana
[16:22] friend: matanda ka na kasi eh ako bata pa
[16:23] me: hwag mo namang ipag diinan na matanda ako
[16:23] me: hahaha
[16:24] me: tatanda ka rin hehehe
Thursday, November 02, 2006
A Chronicle of my whole day at Chatworld
[15:04] friend: kasi im having doubts...