Punyeta!!!

Punyeta....

Kanina nagsusulat na ako ng bigla akong nabored kasi trying hard na naman ako to be sane when in fact my mind is running wild. Narealize ko na napapadalas ang gamit ko ng word na yan kahit na hindi ko naman talaga alam ang literal meaning nung word feeling ko lang mas okay na lang yan kaysa mag mura ako ng magmura. But going back to the word, sabi ko nga madalas as in madalas lalo na when it is referring to the plebes take this examples;

1. Ilang beses bang uulitin sa'yo na yung punyetang daliri na yan ay dapat laging magkadikit
2. Mahirap ba intindihin na may mga bagay na pwede namang ganito pero dahil nasa PMA kayo dapat gawin nyo kung paano ang tinuro. Mga punyeta kayo kung ayaw nyong makinig mag resign na kayo
3. Ano ka ba, nag iisip ka ba, punyetang luha yan hindi ka naman papatayin ng mga tao dito iyak ka ng iyak bakit awang awa ka na ba talaga sa sarili mo, pride lang kasi yan, punyetang pride yan.
4. Mga punyeta kayo, pag sinabi kong magplantsa ng uniporme magplantsa, hindi naman ako ang magususuot ng plantsadong pantalon at mas lalong wala akong mapapala kung makikita ng mga tao na kadeteng kadete ang mga suot nyong uniporme.

Forgive the language but that is how it is. But then hindi naman talaga yan ang nagtrigger kung bakit naisip ko yung word na yan ngayon ngayon lang. Ang totoo nagbabasa ako when I chanced upon reading a blog of a friend in friendster at sabi ko Punyeta to refer to something she is saying na parang weird. Actually hindi weird kundi, nakakainis lang for me... hay nako basta ganun as I said my mind is running wild and it will take sometime for me to be on a stage like yesterday when I wrote the two entries in quick succession. Well ito na muna... magandang gabi at huwag kayong mag alala hindi ko kayo sinasabihan ng punyeta :)

Lessons I learned

Sabi ko na eh hindi ko matitiis sarili ko, so I am writing another entry immediately after I wrote the one before this. Promise I will make sense.

I once struggled at trying to understand things about life. I believe all of us has gone through this stage but not many have really made up their minds of the answer to their questions about life. I can just reminisce how I use to soul search with Yas and wonder why things just turn bad despite of our sincere intent and honest labor for things to go as it should. But then it does not, we get frustrated over the outcome and sometimes, the hardest to stomach is that it was done by people that we thought would stay on our side. That was true for my father. My father's infidelity was not the hardest thing about having a broken family it was actually the fact that it was my father's doing, a person that I truly adored as a young boy back then. It is never easy to get in terms with the reality of people failing us by not doing their end of the bargain and just totally disregarding you despite of the effect their decisions will have on you. But then once we are able to understand the situation there are things that stand out, I guess these are my lessons and I'm sharing it now.

1. We will never be able to control things. What has happened has happened and there is no amount of tears, vengeance, frustrations, self-pity, blaming and all others that can change the situation. It is nice to really feel the sadness of the situation to be able to understand why it has to happen but dwelling on it is a dead end. We do not gain or change anything.
2. The only thing we can control in this world is ourselves. I remembered how people wonder why I can still smile when my mother died. I cried in secret but I smiled in front of people. I reasoned that it was up to me to decide how to react to any situation. If I allow it to control me then be it but our choice spells out the difference.
3. Our own happiness is our own doing, what we do with our lives will be our life. The people around us can just feel bad when we mess up but they will never suffer the outcome of the choices we make. As desiderate would put it "Strive to be happy."
4. Life is not to be understood, it is to be enjoyed and learned from. We will never be able to understand why things turn bad but the truth remains is that the situation has turned bad. Trying to crack our heads in understanding why bad things happen will just cause us more frustrations and more tears but it will never change the fact that the situations has turned bad. Although sad, we just have to accept reality and get on with our lives, it is never the end of the world and more people have more problems than we are encountering.
5. Finally, it always helps to pray. However we concieve God, life is always easier to deal with when we know that there is someone who controls everything that is happening in this world.

The rain and being quiet and hopeful

How do you explain waking up with a headache after being tired from all the preparations for inspection and then waking up 3 hours after? I felt something was wrong with me, something bad just happens when we overdo things even sleeping. And so even I chose to go to the computer to pass the time just to avoid sleeping again.

The day was normal except for the weather just did not start right. I thought the whole day would be sunshine since the morning was very nice with the sun coming out for the first time after several weeks of rain. But then as afternoon came, rain started to pour again as if the sky hated the fact that it allowed some sunshine during the morning. I hate the timing since if the rain was in the morning then the parade would have cancelled and I would be spared of standing for too long in the Borromeo Field with all the mud because of the never ending rain. But the good thing about the rain in the afternoon was that sleeping became so good to the point that I overslept and woke up with a headache. To some extent the rain can be good only if it stops once in a while.

And so I begin with the bulk of today's entry. Last night I was reading my daily devotional. It was about some writer in history that described the early Christians as a quiet and hopeful people. Quiet and hopeful may not be something that is admirable this days but that description struck me. Today's culture somehow has this inclination into admiring a group that is rich, fashionable or in a broader sense IN (whatever that means to people). That part in the devotional was about fruits of the spirit namely: love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, long-suffering, faithfulness, kindness, and self control. It said that it was because of this fruits that the early Christians came to be known as a quiet and hopeful people. I guess that still doesn't make sense. Let me put things in perspective. First let us all remember that the early Christians were persecuted for what they believed in, yet they managed to be quiet and hopeful, ironic isn't it? If we try to think of the tremendous odds they were faced at that time, their group was large enough to at least protect themselves, show that they are something, yet they chose to be Quiet and Hopeful. I just realized that although we do not think highly of people who are quiet and hopeful, these two characteristics might just spell the difference between problematic people and people who are very much contented and above all happy. My realization last night was something that people might not look up to when faced with odds that seem to be insurmountable, yet by choosing to be quiet and hopeful spells out a very big difference. Just think about it.

Well, I'm ending this entry now I still have a lot of things in my mind but I'll just reserve it for next time. Thank you very much to all the people who sent in their messages.

The things that are happening

It took sometime for me to log-in. I had to find some way because the log-in page is just not loading. But anyway I am here now writing my piece.

A lot of things are happening right now. We are in the news again for the nth time and I do not want to comment about it let's leave the issue as it is. Anyway last weekend, Ces Drilon went here to cover one area in our training. We were not specifically told what it is but I reckon it was something related to Physical Development. We were given instruction to answer only questions related to this subject. With that in mind I began making mock interviews on the other cadets. I told them to imagine that I was a reporter, the mock interview goes like this:

Me: Cadet *_* ano ang masasabi mo sa relasyong Diether Ocampo at Kristine Hermosa?

Cadet *_*: Aba Maganda yan, ang feeling ko bagay sila.

Me: Mali ka di'ba ang sabi we are not to answer any question that is not related to Physical Development?

I asked several others and they all seem to be very interested to voice out their sentiments on the question I raised. I then started telling them that in year 2000, Kristine Hermosa was commissioned muse of PMA for the Baguio Educational Athletic League (its BBEAL now with the entry of Benguet State University to the League). That was the time when PMA still had money to pay actresses to become our muse. The year before that was Sunshine Cruz which was the height of her popularity brought about by movies like Ang Kabit ni Mrs. Montero with Edu Manzano and Gardo Versoza, and Ekis with Albert Martinez. That was before she was with Cesar Montano. I could remember it very clearly because my brother (who was a third year then) was one of the escorts and he showed me his picture with the actress. Of course, PMA now is more practical that was before the austerity measures were undertaken. In the last opening of the BBEAL that we hosted, the muses were our female cadets. I think that its better not only that it save us a lot of money but the muse also exemplifies the school that she represents, I don't think the likes of Kristine Hermosa or Sunshine Cruz can run 3.2 kilometers in less than 17 minutes.

Let me now explain my reason for removing my shout box. The reason I placed it there is to make the site interactive. When it first appeared there were a lot of reactions that made me improve in the way I write and other informations people want to know. Sadly, at the onset of people who do not like my ideas, it has instead become their way of expressing their gripes which sad to say are totally baseless. I guess some of them know me from before, the one who was discharged for "possessing unwanted traits and habits." That isn't something that I am proud of what I am proud of is what happened after that. I was then a young 17 year old with no care in the world who thought that life was something that came naturally. That story is of the past and has taught me lessons that I value now. The point is this the choose to attack me on the basis of who I am as a person rather than actually refuting the points I raised. If they really had something to say more than saying that I am some insecure person who hides behind my words why can't they make their own contentions and use the comment form? The issue I heard they are pointing out is the fact that I should not write things that put the academy in the bad light like the bad things I observe. While its true that I do not agree with how some of the things are done here, I do not agree with them not because I just want to but because I think these practices do not have a place in this institution. Although its true that PMA will not change for me but I am hoping that PMA will change for the better, better than I found it. Even in our society, we find things that we do not agree, yet we do not isolate ourselves from it, we either take action or become adamant to what is happening around us. I believe that being adamant is the coward's way and I refuse to be one. I do not need to prove anything to anybody, what I write is an outflow of what I feel inside, this is who I am. People may not necessarily agree with what I do or write but they do not have the slighest right to judge me for it, they do not know anything about me. The people that criticize me haven't even read the whole blog and yet they pretend they know everything about me. I am not seeking popularity, what I am after is respect and consideration. The bottomline is we all have something to contribute to make things better and I believe this is mine. Don't worry I will not launch some revolution, I'm doing what I can at my level and just maybe in the long run I am able to make something out of it.

Sunday will be 27 August the day the incoming PMA class of 2011 will take their entrance exams. The examinations will cover English Grammar and Comprehension, Math and a Special PMA Aptitude Test. For more information visit this site.

I guess that is all for now, for comments just click the comment form below.... thanks and God Bless

It has gone too far

The harrassment has gone too far and I do not wish to glorify their remarks in my shoutbox. If they have negative thoughts about me then they make their own blog and write everything they want to write about me they do not know a thing about who I am. I have them to thank for increasing traffic which is a good thing because I want to raise my rank at pinoytopblogs. If they really have valid points then they can talk sense by writing it in the comments after each entry that they find troubling other than that they are simply some insecure people who wants to be noticed by people at my expense, the form on the side is for your perusal. This is just an advisory. Thanks to all those who go to this blog.