Tidbits

I'm trying my best to think of something that would make sense but finally giving up to just writing the bits and pieces that remained in my head trying to make the most out of the little time I have to blog. Here it is:

• PMA won the recently concluded 1st Tri-Academy Athletic Meet which was played with the Philippine National Police Academy and Maritime Academy of Asia and the Pacific. I will definitely shape up so that I can compete back in swimming and join the meet next year which will be hosted by MAAP in Bataan.
• I still do not have a drag for the hop this saturday. By drag I mean a partner and hop is a dance. I wonder why I feel so worried about this when it really doesn't matter if I have a partner or not... It's weird really.
• I have a very MAJOR exam tomorrow... wala lang just saying it
• So many new ideas are coming up about the article I will publish here soon, I am just waiting to have time to put in this new ideas and improve the article.
• I was jumping from one friendster account to another just moments ago and I kind of realized how fun it is outside and be Free. Its not that this yearning of mine is new I just have to say it.
• Last Friday, I receieved a package from my Father all the way from Davao about an information I need for a project. I was kind of dismayed because I thought he would have added some treat for me in that package. Lo and behold I was sent the only thing that I asked... Hindi man nya lang naisip na sana padalhan ng something ang kanyang kawawang anak sa Baguio
• Its was warmer last night and I hope it keeps up, the temperature kind of affects my mood lately.

That is all I can think of right now... till next blogging adventure. I love you people

It is not always that I listen to a speech from our usual visitors every saturday that I end up thinking about what that guest said. Today is definitely one of those rare moments. For some reason listening to a four star general talking about his "rotment" as a cadet in the Philippine Military Academy and then concluding by saying "NO AMOUNT... I'M NOW THE CHIEF PNP" kind of gives so much hope in whatever rotment it is that I am feeling everyday that I spend here. I think this blog has been a witness to the many complains I have, from the simplest to the silliest. I always defend myself that although I complain, it is just my way of releasing the building up tension inside me. This afternoon, when I went out of the mess hall, I kind of thought that maybe the general speaking in front just moments ago might have had the same feeling that I always have but still he persisted. And that may have been true to all the other generals in the hall that afternoon. In the end, came back to my room having a renewed sense of hope and realizing that each day that I move on brings me closer to my goal. Maybe in the not so distant future, I will be able to say to myself... "NO AMOUNT!!!"

I actually have tons to do. In my front is a folder that has something to do with a class project that has been unofficially delegated to me to do. I also have a lot of things to write for some other requirements. The irony is that although I am aware of all this, it seems that I do not have the will to do what I have to do. I end up staring at the computer screen and jumping from one friendster account to another. I then start missing people and become sentimental and then write about it in this blog (just right now) Maybe its because I do not have someone to talk to like I had Yaser way back in the days that I did not wear the cadet uniform. Maybe because I try my best not to deal with my problems and just hope for the better. Or maybe I am just stressed up that I can not concentrate on accomplishing my tasks. I do not know but I really have to gather myself and start going back to what I am supposed to do.

Imagine the irony of what I am writing, first its about hope and then suddenly I am talking about losing focus... something is definitely wrong with me. Anyway, the article will soon come out just be patient... Goodbye people....

So this is how it is during winter

Yesterday, I heard from the news that Baguio registered ten degrees which was a torture to most of us. We had to close all of our windows and cover ourselves with blankte just to get through the night. I, for one, expected this because January and February are usually the coldest months here but its just colder this year. Then later, there was a weather news from CNN, surprisingly, New York registered sixteen degrees which means Baguio is colder. I then said to my room mates "Ganito pala pag winter sa ibang bansa" then going near the iron which we used as a makeshift heater.

Well the cold weather can bring about so many thing. For one, no matter how "unsleepy" you are you just can't help but fall asleep because of the weather. I was listening intently earlier in my Statistics class, already feeling bored because the lesson was something I already knew. Instead, I started to solve my assignment so that I will not have to do it in the barracks. I wrote the formula, punched some numbers in my calculator, write the result and then do it all over again. I became so preoccupied with what I was doing when suddenly, I heard my whole class saying out my name. Finally, my seatmate touched my back and then I was awakened. My paper had no writings in it and my calculator was turned off... well blame it to the weather.

Aside from that, waking up becomes harder. Imagine when you have become so comfortable inside your blanket where it is warm and comfy and you can feel the coldness creeping from beyond your covered body. When my room mates begin to start making their noise at 5:30 in the morning, its as if I would want to just totally disappear and be let alone to sleep. Of course, I can't because after sometime I really had to wake up and change into my uniform. Surprisingly taking a bath is different. I do not know if it is scientifically possible but it just seems that the water in the sink is warmer than the climate. My theory is that because of the very cold environment the water was not able to catch up. Although the water is still called, your body becomes warmer afterwards only that you start to chill again as soon as the cold air blows to your body.

But all in all the weather did not stop me from doing what had to be done. The day goes on with its normal routine and I can just hope that this weather will be warmer in the coming days. So this is how it is during winter, I am kind of wishing that snow will start falling tomorrow just for the sake of experience. Anyway, so this is how cold it is in Baguio, in case you people would want to take a vacation here do bring your thickest jackets....

Questions

I did not intend to write a post just now, but the comment in one of my previous posts kind of trigerred some reaction that I had to straighten out some things. I do not wish to be miunderstood in this one.

Although it would seem that I felt bad about being banned from writing in the mag, that is not what I am really sad about. I have long accepted that I will not be able to always say what I think(or write it for that matter). If one may have observed how I have been in the many posts in this blog, I have always been critical about the kind of leadership exercised by the people around me. I am inside the biggest leadership laboratory in the country and its sad that even in this place there are instances that something is not right. In my limited knowledge about the real world and my inexperienced ego, I do know that my perception is not that good but I am very much aware if things are not going the way it should.

These are the questions at hand:

1. What is the leader's responsibility to his subordinates? Does he ignore them as long as he has the best of intentions?
2. Is it too hard to understand that sometimes we do not have the monopoly of ideas that sometimes it helps to seek other people's opinion?
3. Does longevity equate to maturity?
4. Who says something is wrong when your boss is going wild especially in the military organization?

In all these questions (there are many others that I can think of) I realized that in the end it will not be about the leader but about how we wish to define ourselves. I do not have all the answers but I do know that when all else fails I will have to stick to my convictions, remember my values and put my faith in God.

Announcement!!!

I am quite done with THE ARTICLE THAT GOT ME INTO TROUBLE. As promised I will publish it in this blog. I sent it to some friends for editing and final inputs and then I'll post it here, kindly wait for it. Thank you very much...