The rain and being quiet and hopeful

How do you explain waking up with a headache after being tired from all the preparations for inspection and then waking up 3 hours after? I felt something was wrong with me, something bad just happens when we overdo things even sleeping. And so even I chose to go to the computer to pass the time just to avoid sleeping again.

The day was normal except for the weather just did not start right. I thought the whole day would be sunshine since the morning was very nice with the sun coming out for the first time after several weeks of rain. But then as afternoon came, rain started to pour again as if the sky hated the fact that it allowed some sunshine during the morning. I hate the timing since if the rain was in the morning then the parade would have cancelled and I would be spared of standing for too long in the Borromeo Field with all the mud because of the never ending rain. But the good thing about the rain in the afternoon was that sleeping became so good to the point that I overslept and woke up with a headache. To some extent the rain can be good only if it stops once in a while.

And so I begin with the bulk of today's entry. Last night I was reading my daily devotional. It was about some writer in history that described the early Christians as a quiet and hopeful people. Quiet and hopeful may not be something that is admirable this days but that description struck me. Today's culture somehow has this inclination into admiring a group that is rich, fashionable or in a broader sense IN (whatever that means to people). That part in the devotional was about fruits of the spirit namely: love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, long-suffering, faithfulness, kindness, and self control. It said that it was because of this fruits that the early Christians came to be known as a quiet and hopeful people. I guess that still doesn't make sense. Let me put things in perspective. First let us all remember that the early Christians were persecuted for what they believed in, yet they managed to be quiet and hopeful, ironic isn't it? If we try to think of the tremendous odds they were faced at that time, their group was large enough to at least protect themselves, show that they are something, yet they chose to be Quiet and Hopeful. I just realized that although we do not think highly of people who are quiet and hopeful, these two characteristics might just spell the difference between problematic people and people who are very much contented and above all happy. My realization last night was something that people might not look up to when faced with odds that seem to be insurmountable, yet by choosing to be quiet and hopeful spells out a very big difference. Just think about it.

Well, I'm ending this entry now I still have a lot of things in my mind but I'll just reserve it for next time. Thank you very much to all the people who sent in their messages.

The things that are happening

It took sometime for me to log-in. I had to find some way because the log-in page is just not loading. But anyway I am here now writing my piece.

A lot of things are happening right now. We are in the news again for the nth time and I do not want to comment about it let's leave the issue as it is. Anyway last weekend, Ces Drilon went here to cover one area in our training. We were not specifically told what it is but I reckon it was something related to Physical Development. We were given instruction to answer only questions related to this subject. With that in mind I began making mock interviews on the other cadets. I told them to imagine that I was a reporter, the mock interview goes like this:

Me: Cadet *_* ano ang masasabi mo sa relasyong Diether Ocampo at Kristine Hermosa?

Cadet *_*: Aba Maganda yan, ang feeling ko bagay sila.

Me: Mali ka di'ba ang sabi we are not to answer any question that is not related to Physical Development?

I asked several others and they all seem to be very interested to voice out their sentiments on the question I raised. I then started telling them that in year 2000, Kristine Hermosa was commissioned muse of PMA for the Baguio Educational Athletic League (its BBEAL now with the entry of Benguet State University to the League). That was the time when PMA still had money to pay actresses to become our muse. The year before that was Sunshine Cruz which was the height of her popularity brought about by movies like Ang Kabit ni Mrs. Montero with Edu Manzano and Gardo Versoza, and Ekis with Albert Martinez. That was before she was with Cesar Montano. I could remember it very clearly because my brother (who was a third year then) was one of the escorts and he showed me his picture with the actress. Of course, PMA now is more practical that was before the austerity measures were undertaken. In the last opening of the BBEAL that we hosted, the muses were our female cadets. I think that its better not only that it save us a lot of money but the muse also exemplifies the school that she represents, I don't think the likes of Kristine Hermosa or Sunshine Cruz can run 3.2 kilometers in less than 17 minutes.

Let me now explain my reason for removing my shout box. The reason I placed it there is to make the site interactive. When it first appeared there were a lot of reactions that made me improve in the way I write and other informations people want to know. Sadly, at the onset of people who do not like my ideas, it has instead become their way of expressing their gripes which sad to say are totally baseless. I guess some of them know me from before, the one who was discharged for "possessing unwanted traits and habits." That isn't something that I am proud of what I am proud of is what happened after that. I was then a young 17 year old with no care in the world who thought that life was something that came naturally. That story is of the past and has taught me lessons that I value now. The point is this the choose to attack me on the basis of who I am as a person rather than actually refuting the points I raised. If they really had something to say more than saying that I am some insecure person who hides behind my words why can't they make their own contentions and use the comment form? The issue I heard they are pointing out is the fact that I should not write things that put the academy in the bad light like the bad things I observe. While its true that I do not agree with how some of the things are done here, I do not agree with them not because I just want to but because I think these practices do not have a place in this institution. Although its true that PMA will not change for me but I am hoping that PMA will change for the better, better than I found it. Even in our society, we find things that we do not agree, yet we do not isolate ourselves from it, we either take action or become adamant to what is happening around us. I believe that being adamant is the coward's way and I refuse to be one. I do not need to prove anything to anybody, what I write is an outflow of what I feel inside, this is who I am. People may not necessarily agree with what I do or write but they do not have the slighest right to judge me for it, they do not know anything about me. The people that criticize me haven't even read the whole blog and yet they pretend they know everything about me. I am not seeking popularity, what I am after is respect and consideration. The bottomline is we all have something to contribute to make things better and I believe this is mine. Don't worry I will not launch some revolution, I'm doing what I can at my level and just maybe in the long run I am able to make something out of it.

Sunday will be 27 August the day the incoming PMA class of 2011 will take their entrance exams. The examinations will cover English Grammar and Comprehension, Math and a Special PMA Aptitude Test. For more information visit this site.

I guess that is all for now, for comments just click the comment form below.... thanks and God Bless

It has gone too far

The harrassment has gone too far and I do not wish to glorify their remarks in my shoutbox. If they have negative thoughts about me then they make their own blog and write everything they want to write about me they do not know a thing about who I am. I have them to thank for increasing traffic which is a good thing because I want to raise my rank at pinoytopblogs. If they really have valid points then they can talk sense by writing it in the comments after each entry that they find troubling other than that they are simply some insecure people who wants to be noticed by people at my expense, the form on the side is for your perusal. This is just an advisory. Thanks to all those who go to this blog.

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My Top 10 best picks

I realized that I have been writing in this blog for the past 5 years of my life. I have written so many things on so many topics. I decided to highlight some of the articles that I think are best picks for me. Somehow, I believe by doing this my critiques will understand how this blog exists and be enlightened. Here are the top ten:

1. In my old blog I particularly like almost all entries (but I have to have favorites), it is not bookmarked so you will have to do the searching. I like the entry on my squad leader who became the class goat of 2003, its on the bottom part. Then those that I wrote in memory of my mother, and finally my confession on what really happened when I got discharged. And then there was this prediction I made that saying that I will go back to PMA.
2. May 2005 is a good one because it chronicled my struggle with Calculus. How I hate the fact that I am having a hard time coping up with the subject. And then declaring that I passed it
3. I like this one because there is so much energy and I know I was speaking from the heart.
4. This one is about my fondness for letters. I'm sharing my love for letter writing.
5. This blog entry brought in opinions but not as rude as the one coming out right now.
6. There is irony in this entry about the Naga trip last February but I like it just the same. There is something more in this story you can just look for it starting from the January entries of this year.
7. This is my testimony as a Christian
8. The very much loved Prosti Story this one was the original version of the one published in the Corps Magazine last June
9. Aptly titled My Frustrations, but as I always said it does not mean that I hate it here, can you blame me for being frustrated at times?
10. And finally the July and August entries that brought in several critiques.

Well, somehow the entries I highlighted are different in a variety of ways. All in all the blog is a journal of the last 5 years of my life, it wasn't easy but it was a very worthwhile learning experience. I think the blog allows me to reflect on the things that have happened and be thankful that I am still on my feet with head raised high. I am able to appreciate everything and continue to be hopeful of the things that are still to come in our lives.